Living in Presence

                                         Why is There So Much Suffering and Pain in Life?

A friend asked me to connect with source and ask that question for him.   I am sharing the answer that came.  I can’t say these are a reflection of my beliefs; it is just what came thru. 

Most of your suffering comes from believing that a particular person, situation or thing is where your happiness lies.  When you forget that love, peace and security is to be found within you, the Universe who loves you and doesn’t want you trapped in the hell of a false reality making you smaller than you are, will sometimes take these things away to redirect you to the freedom, peace and love that can be found when you are as naked as the day you were born – not believing in false idols. 

The second major source of pain is that we don’t honor the truth of our being and the knowing of our hearts.  We were taught to look to others for how to be in life instead of listening to the compass within that guides us true. 

The third reason is sometimes spirits before birth make agreements that would seem to hurt another.  But it is in our greatest pain and betrayal that we can find liberation.  These people and situations force us to connect with the truth of who we are.  Perhaps only a love as great as Judas had for Jesus, could allow Judas to play the role he did.  

Jesus was afraid to be crucified but in being nailed to the cross, the only thing he could do was to connect with God or you could say the truth of what he was – a vast love that could say, “Forgive them for they know not what they do.” 

The Dali Lama being exiled from China is what has caused his teachings to spread all over the world. 

Sometimes children die because they are spirits who agreed to help us open their hearts or to start movements like the Amber alert.  Chris Reeve who played Superman in the movies and his wife were very high souls who agreed to Chris’ accident knowing it would help break thru society’s resistance to stem cell research. 

So wherever there is pain in your life, ask yourself, is there any belief, situation or person that you are making a false God or giving your power over to.  If you ask to see the truth of the situation, it will be shown to you.  

Remember to ask to know the truth of any relationship or situation and be willing to open up and receive the truth.  Open your energy like you are standing on a mountaintop breathing in fresh air.  If you open your energy that way and ask to be or see the truth, it will raise your experience.  If you notice, we are a range of feelings from low to high.  When people are in love the whole world looks beautiful.  This can happen at any moment for anyone, being in love without having an particular object for our love.

 If you invite truth and love to be in your life, they will come, but in order to honor your free will they only come upon invitation.  Ask in your own way from the longing in your heart and they will come.

Pieces From Presence

                by Valerie Stuart

I was meditating under some trees and a squirrel chirped in alarm at me. I just continued to meditate and send it energy that I was a friend. After a while it stopped chirping and I heard little feet scurrying down a tree that was about 5 feet from me. He hung on the trunk of the tree across from my face and we gazed into each other’s eyes for about 10 minutes.  

Time stood still as we communed in the realization, “oh, wow, you are me!” and "Oh wow, you are God!" 

I felt we were both reaching out for each other, eager to commune in oneness. Afterward, I felt the words below coming to me from the love I felt in that meadow. It seems this love is growing stronger and easier to access. There are so many unseen friends who are eager to support us in the realization of this love.

                               All For You

​Wherever you go you will feel this love
It is in footsteps, train whistles, and voices on the radio
It is in the
skies, the trees, and the birds above
This love is with you, wherever you go

This peace is for you
You are constantly in its care
This resting you can do
any place, anywhere

Wherever your eyes look, it is there
It stands beside, around, and over you
And in your seen and unseen friends who share
​​​this bountiful love that’s always here for you

         I AM

 Beneath the spin

of what, who and when

should do, ought to

could have been

Going deeper one finds enough

Slowly, a smile grins

embraced by the one love

a dance of wholeness begins

I am, I Am, I AM

in an ecstatic sea

happy as a clam

In the allness of me


You are up and down and all things

Yet you are not high or low

but both butterfly and king

and the gaze that captures both

     Now I Understand

In this moment now
I can say
I am grateful
for all the pain
that was in this life
finally impaling
this heart
so it could no longer stray
in universes of illusion

Pain left no place to go
except true north
The narrow path
straight home
to you
the only place left
that finally
even this blind one
could feel
to find it's way
to fall
your awaiting arms


           I Am Eternally

​​​I am the one who is bound
and the two who were never
I am the one that can’t be found
I am the all together

I am the heart of all
the love without end
the fool who always falls
the heart that always mends

I am you and me
all time

I am freedom living the totality  

                        Toy Box of Life

​I've been playing in the lost and found
grabbing at other children's toys
With each new find
thinking happiness was now mine

But new toys soon lose their glow
being only cardboard imitations

When I am found
no longer clinging to false idols,
the toys and I return to their proper home
of freedom playing